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Tonight I really want to text you just to see how you are and if you’re doing okay; but then I remember that’s not my place anymore. All I want to do is talk to you but I can’t and wow what a mess we’re in.
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I’m not really sure of anything right now except that I miss you and that there’s nothing I can do about it
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& it’s almost the point where this time last year you and I met. A year ago we were just at the beginning. I was about to be so happy. Man I had no idea what I was in for. Uncontrollable smiles and undeniable happiness. A little while ago I was told to write down 5 distinct moments that brought me joy. Two of them involved you.
Despite how messy our ending was I hope you never forget the version of the two of us that was about to exist this time last year.
I hope you never forget the phone calls that wouldn’t end until 3 am because we just couldn’t stop listening to each other’s voices. I hope you never forget the dark theater and the back of my car. I hope you never forget the feelings and the happiness. I hope you never forget that there was a version of you that connected with a version of me and it was epic.
It was short. And it was messy. But it was epic.
And as much as I never want to see you again, and as much as both of us have changed, I hope you find a way to forgive me for the things I did wrong. I hope I find a way to forgive you. I hope one day we can both look back and remember the joy. I hope that the memories of what was about to be this time last year is what lasts. Not the resentment.
I hope you remember me as the me you so desperately wanted to believe you were in love with. And I hope I find a way to remember you as the you I was so close to being in love with.
I hope I stop being bitter. Because I miss being undeniably happy.a nostalgic night -
I miss you but I don’t want you back. I don’t want to be with you anymore but that doesn’t mean I’m not sad things went down this way.
Current feeling
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Anonymous asks:
Who are you thankful for?
A lot of people. But I’m particularly thankful for my best friend Kayleigh who is always there for me and always on my side and constantly making me a better person.
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Our eyes met and suddenly
I forgot how to breathe.(via q-ueens)Reblogged from:
ilovedhermost
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I wonder how many awkward things people have said to me I’ve completely forgotten about but still makes someone cringe randomly when they are trying to sleep.
Reblogged from:captain-up-all-night
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People should say what they mean and not make other people stumble around.
Stephanie Perkins (via quotemadness)Reblogged from:
craved-deactivated20230908
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Reblogged from:
kushandwizdom
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I guess I’ve been feeling things out of order. When things end you’re supposed to get sad and slowly start getting better. I was just angry and hurt.
But then a song I forgot I had even made an emotional connection to came up on my shuffle. And it all came back. The good things. A point when things weren’t so messy and in fact, were actually really good.
Now I’m not angry.
I’m just sad.
A month later and it’s just now hitting me what we lost when we let things get so bad.
I miss you. Not the you that ignored me for days and belittled my feelings. But the you that could make me smile just by talking to me. The you that talked me through the stress of hard exams and finals week. The you that would call me in the middle of the night every night.
It wasn’t all bad. Most of it was great.
And now I’m not angry at the you who hurt me and made me so angry. I’m just sad that things went down the way they did.
I feel so fucking sad.